Dear Nate

Dear Nate,
 
I just can't resist. I know this may fall into the slightly annoying category of "Facebook love" but you'll just have to forgive me. You know I love a good old fashioned handwritten note but there is something about tucking away this little "letter" that somehow feels safer. Lord knows the amount of stuff in drawers around our house these days so maybe this is my attempt to give you something that can't be accidentally tossed or scribbled on or chewed up by June. Besides every once in a while I believe a little public "I love you!!" is perfectly acceptable. Think Tom Cruise on the couch...but we're not famous and Oprah isn't acting shocked and uncomfortable. :) Here goes...

Today I watched as America stopped for a minute and took notice of all you and so many others have done for our country. Hand shakes, kind words, smiles and don't forget the free food. It's all a really lovely gesture of appreciation...but here's what I want you to know...no one is prouder of you than I am.  

I know each man whose served has his own "story".  Unique and personal and one of thousands who have chosen this path of service.  For most who say thank you on a day like today the story behind the man is a mystery but I know yours like the back of my hand.  And the truth of the matter is it is my story too.  I know every struggle, every victory and the millions of tears that have been shed beginning with the first time we said goodbye and you drove away to OCS. You've changed in so many ways since that day...you've become someone I admire deeply and respect wholeheartedly.  I've changed too.  Our story has story has taught me a lot but maybe the biggest thing I have learned is the value in just being together.  Without the pain of your absence on Christmas, birthday's, and anniversary's I'm not sure I would have ever fully know how to appreciate your presence.  I've seen the struggle in your eyes between duty and our family and I know I will never quite understand what that tug of war has done to your heart. For me it has always been about family...trying to somehow hold this thing together when you were away.  But I know for you there is a side that I may never quite understand and yet I want you to know I love you for wanting to serve. Even if it meant time apart and moments where I felt emotionally spent I love who it has made you as a man. 

And the truth is the real glue that holds this family together is you. As I watched America say thank you today I thought it only appropriate that you hear this from me...Thank you for following your dreams. It has brought us where we are today.  Thank you for pouring your heart and soul into being a dad it's just beyond anything I've ever experienced to see you with our girls. And thank you for loving me well...for making the tough times worth it and the good times great. I love this life but more than that...I love you. 

Coming down from the couch now :)

XOXO 
Beth